and in the moment... i swear we were infinite.

perks of being the wallflower has been my favorite book since i read the first page ten years ago. since then, i have read it countless times. sometimes i've even read it twice in one day. just because. i'll read one book, the perks, then another book. if i'm bored i read it. happy? i read it. sad? i read it. i used to carry my copy around with me wherever i went. my copy of the novel is ten years old and the pages are well loved and on the verge of breaking free from their spine. i have 28 post-it tabs marking my favorite passages, as well as post-it notes in the book with my thoughts. the top corners of pages are bent where there weren't enough post-it tabs.

i guess you could say i'm kind of in love with the protagonist, charlie. of course, it certainly helps that he was born on my half-birthday and that i'm probably also a wallflower. i just relate to this book so much.

my current favorite passage, from pages 62-63, which i find highly relevant right now:

I had an amazing feeling when I finalLy held the tape in my hand. I just thought to myself that in the palm of my hand, there was this one tape that had all of these memories and feelings and great joy and sadness. Right there in the palm Of my hand. And I thought about how many people have loVed those songs. And how many people got through a lot of bad timEs because of those songs. And how many people enjoyed good times with those songs. And How much those songs really mean. I think it would be great to have written one of those songs. I Bet if I wrote one of them, I would be very proud. I hope the people who wrote those songs are happy. I hope that they feel it's enough. I really do because they've made me happy. And I'm only one person.